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It's been a while



It's been a while since I've opened
My diary and greeted it with my tales-
A religious duty seldom performed
As these hands have better things to write.

It's been a while since I've opened a book
And travelled with it through the plot;
A poor planned schedule and a tired mind
Since my eyes have better things to read.

It's been a while since I've posted a
New blog and engaged my audience
In words and thinking.
They seldom ask for my absence though,
I assume the old posts keep them thinking.

It's been a while since I've scribbled
Through pages with my arm aching
It aches because it has to keep in par
With what my mind and heart are yelling.

It's been a while since I've had
An arm ache while writing-
But an arm ache due to a heartache
Is all the ache I'd take.

It's been a while since I've seen you around
You who've been lingering on my website for a while now.
It's been a journey for you and me
Three and a half years to be precise.

It's been quite a long journey for you and me-
There and a half years,
It's been that long since the deal started
You as the reader and me the writer.

It's been a while since I've written
A new blog for you
Well, sometimes there's just nothing to write
Even if there's all the time in the world.

It's been a while since I've written
But now I have somehow written
A piece on why I haven't been writing
Which still has no solid reason.

It's been a while since I've written
But oops! I have accidentally.
And somehow it will turn into a post and
Reach your eager eyes.

It's been a while since I've written
And I've always wondered,
If anyone would miss me
If I'd all of a sudden disappear.

It's been a while since I've written
And all I have are pieces of disorganised notes
But thank the heavens for these readers,
For they read each writing patiently-

And bring them back to life telling,
'It feels like it's only been yesterday
Since I've read something from you,
Looks like nothing's changed at all.'
They say with a comforting smile

I proceed to comfort myself with a smile,
And take a look at what I've written.
You've finally did it, I say to myself,
It's not my best and I'm fully aware,
Welcome back, you reader!

07.12.19

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