Awake or Asleep

I remember lying awake on
That bed, my mom beside me.
Listening to that morning drizzle,
My mom peacefully lying beside me.

I remember my sister pulling me
To sleep beside her for a little longer.
Her lazy Saturday mornings blissfully turned
Into my nostalgic memories.

I remember mamma gently cupping my
Arm, as she slept beside me telling
Me how she missed me all along as I
Notice the ceiling miss my blank stares.

I remember my sister calling me the
Name she lovingly calls me and wrapping me
In her warm hugs, cuddling with me just
As how she would on any other normal day.

Two weeks before, in another place I
Remember my dad playing and cuddling
With me as we prepare to fall asleep.
I remember how everything around him
Faded,
When his little girl was in his arms.

Kohima War Cemetery, 23.06.18

I remember the love and cuddles
As I sleep on a poorly stuffed
Mattress.
I remember the back massages on
That very bed. Never a back
Massage without a touch of Moov.

I remember all the love and cuddles
As I blankly stare at a ceiling
In a different room, in a different city.
I remember all this and let
My heavy heart sink deep
Until I finally finally fall asleep.

6.10.18