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Numb.



It's the feeling of feeling nothing, however hard you try.

It's the feeling of an aching heart that's had too much, a chest that's too tired to take deep breaths in or a body that's too tired to get out of bed.

Numb. But not numbness of the flesh, numbness of the mind.

It's when there's so much to do and you don't know how to. It's when there's too little to think about and hardly any time to write something like this down.

It's the feeling of pain, pressure and expectations succumbing you to the point where you actually need air, where you can truly appreciate going out for an evening walk.

It's when you think you'll be the luckiest person on the planet if you get time to watch the sunset or stargaze because it's one of those therapies that can fill what you've lost and with what you love.

It's when you feel you can't feel anything because you've become a robot - mechanically fulfilling your tasks. It's when there's nothing you can do, nothing you can infer, about the nothingness you feel.

 8/6/17.
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